hard moment

i dont know but i realy feel complicated..i dont know realy..
im like have no space for breathing..
it's hurt when i thinking about that..
ouh god if im not have to be with him why u let me love him..
it's hurt when im thinking the defferent..
i feel this is not fair for me??
until when???
i need someone..who can care me..who can safe me..who loved me..all the time he can make me happy..
when i think..yeah i got it now....but????why it's like just in a dream..
im just realy upset like this..like the last night we were talking about it..
it's realy hurt..
i dont wanna lose him..
but i can do nothing..

tears the tears..have fallen..
why i need u more??
i dont wanna just to be ur girlfriend
u can make me like i still have expectation..
i wanna always share my life with you..

what can i do now god?????
i dont know i can't decide anything..

crying heart....

i cant accept this all.....

my heart is crying now for you....