Minggu, 17 Juli 2011

complicated

The first word for when I just thinking now.it' feel so wierd right now, I don't know feel emptyness,worry,my body like shaking coz my heartbeat like unusual.
Sometimes I feel like a kite, they pull me but they let me fly also.great a game!realy playing me.I don't understand with people around me now.
However I realise maybe they can say that I'm bored girl. Ouh god I'm absurd now
This year realy hard for me. I have to strugle. Hard and keep it until the end. But I can't do that just alone. (Sigh) I hate that word.I need people care of me give me attention.
Ouhh great im dreaming.it is such as need something imposible,but probably not.
Am I deserve it?
I don't know realy. God I don't know what I have to do now and after.I think that I realy can
Rely on this thing to people around me, just only u can help me. Give me way ...how??
I need you ya rabb.
When in mybirthday this month,that was feel not realy good.who people realy have big impact for me.he acted wierd until few days, not exactly,emmm have been more than a week.
What this is all about, I wanna open my eyes when I waked up in the morning. But I didn't realy want actualy
Everything like abstrak, I don't know how to explain or describe what I feel now, yesterday, lately..ouhh god its freaking me out