thursday..still waiting

thursday morning..

at home..

never give up waiting my boyfriends..

"there is no long distance about love, it always find a way to bring hearts together, no matter how many miles are between them"....that was sweet words..i was kept them..

but i dont know..

this morning i saw my boyfriends account.ouh god realy make me argggghhhhh shit..i dont wanna hurt anymore,..realy god..someone told to him " i love u"..oh my god..is that realy??i cant believe it..i was trust to him....i dont wanna broken heart,,no i dont..

im still waiting him..waiting he will call me..

when he go to germany..he told to me wanna call me later..

i miss him..shittt!!!!damnn

im going mad..

i dont know..how i share this..with whom????

shittt..maybe everyone will laugh me and they think that im crazy and freak!!

ouh shut up...!!u dont know..

dont judge me anything dude!!

ouh are u realy love me honey???

damnnn im realy love u ouh  fuck!!! im not pretending..no,im not..

but i just need u realy honest..be honest dear..if u are not realy love me..just talk to me..i dont wanna hurt..but i have to accept the reality..

are u flirting with everyone girls here fucking internet??

i had dreamed...

ouh shitt what the hell is it dini!!!!!!!!!!

morning bad!!!!!!

i wanna be peaceful>...where are u now?when?until when??

ouh shit my heart and my mind still fighting now..

ouh god help me please..i dont know how?honey i realy love u..

realy i dont wanna lose u..why i have to do now?????i hate this fucking shitt feel..complicated..